For some strange reason, I woke up Monday morning with a lot of anxiety. I know none of you can relate to this, I am sure you all woke up Monday morning completely calm and peaceful! But seriously, Monday mornings always hold a fair amount of disquiet for me during the school year. Having so many children, the phone calls and emails stack up quickly over the weekend, so my to-do list on Mondays is usually quite daunting. Ordinarily, I take some time Sunday afternoon to schedule out the week so I at least have an idea of what I am facing come Monday morning. This Sunday I hadn’t gotten that done, so I woke up with a feeling of “flying blind.”
God is always so faithful though. Even though I already felt “behind,” I still had my quiet time that morning, (I learned many years back now, that if I skip that, I might as well go back to bed) and sure enough, He showed up. Reading My Utmost For His Highest, Chambers was saying, “To be certain of God means that we are uncertain in all our ways, we do not know what a day may bring forth.” That is so true. For all my planning I actually cannot control the day. He goes on to say how even though we can’t be certain of what will happen next, we can always be certain of God.
The really cool part is that this isn’t a bad thing. God isn’t waiting to pull the rug out from under us. It is actually quite the opposite. God has all sorts of amazing surprises prepared for us as we walk more closely with Him.
So does this mean that I am going to toss out my calendar anytime soon? Probably not. But I am trying to hold things more loosely, trying to check in with God more frequently about what He thinks about things. And I am trying to live into the, “spontaneous, joyful, uncertainty and expectancy,”* of a life rightly related to God.
“Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.” I Peter 5:7